Esaeler Ym Traeh

If you can read the title above, then you know I am talking to you, and exactly what I want.

Egnarts

Neeb gnileef eht esab fo ym gnir regnif rof etiuq emos emit won, neve retfa I draeh uoy tog deirram. Ton etiuq erus tahw ti snaem...

Following God’s Will

God gave me a chance back in September to make peace with someone, and I didn’t speak up. Then in October and He gave me more chances, and I blew those as well. I had one more opportunity: take a trip to Dallas Theological Seminary the first week of January. Naturally Dallas is not even close to her location, and I had no intention of going where she was, either. Just a trip down, visit the seminary, and come right back. I felt strongly like the Lord wanted me to do it, but I hesitated; and now, all chances to make peace with this person are gone. Let me encourage you: if God is telling you to do something, do it right then, or if it’s for the future, make firm plans. If you don’t, you’ll regret it.

This is Refreshing

It’s refreshing to see that someone is actually checking this blog. For a while I was quite certain that no one was reading it.

I Thought I Knew

I’m filled with a lot of conflicting emotions right now, and I don’t know why. If I was supposed to have gone to Texas and come back by now, why hasn’t it happened? Why as soon as I had found a good deal did the deal evaporate? Why almost as quickly did the money I had held in reserve start to be needed for other things? I’m also genuinely worried, and I hope that the only woman I ever truly loved in the deepest sense of the word isn’t making a terrible mistake. Perhaps I should say no more. I don’t know anymore. Sometimes I get to ranting, and this blog is a nice place to vent, because hardly anyone ever reads it.

eirelavuoyevolllitsi

Merry Christmas!

Hope the holiday brings cheer...no...hope you bring cheer to the holiday. God bless you all, and I’m still praying for you, V.

Delzzup

Yb eht kcal fo esnopser ot eht suoiverp tsop, I esoppus rehtie gnihtyreve si gniog ylhtooms rof uoy, ro uoy yllautca od etah em won, ro ebyam uoy tsuj t’nevah daer ti tey. M’i ylno yrros I t’ndid ekam siht tnemtimmoc elihw ti dluoc llits tifeneb uoy. Ym remrof noitissop saw ot yrt ot tsiser ni ym nwo htgnerts, dna taht t’nsah dekrow. Uoy yam ton eb eht eno, tub fi I yrram niaga, I tnaw ot evig ym efiw eht tsom detoved evol taht I ylbissop nac, dna fi ton, s’ereht on esnes ni gnitpmet flesym. S’ti a gnilifed, gnitpurroc ecneulfni, dna I tnaw on trap fo ti eromyna.

I have decided

I promised God that I will no longer knowingly or intentionally look at anything immodest or obscene. This would even include real people that I would happen to see out in public as well. Even if a very close friend should ask if we could view something together, I would say that the Lord has convicted me concerning this and I’m sorry, but I’m afraid I just can’t participate. This is a solemn vow that I have taken. If I should ever look at anything inappropriate, even so my vow remains in effect. Praise the Lord, who has called me to and virtue and purity. There is only one exception to this: Genesis 2:25 (and this only applies to people who are currently married to each other). What you do with your eyes is your own business, but I have decided to follow Jesus. Matthew 5:27-28 is my guide, as well as the words of the Apostle Paul in 1 Thessalonians 4:1-8.

Happy Thanksgiving!

And I’m praying for you.

Circumlocutions I have heard

“I’m doing such-and-such” could mean “I’m planning to do it.” “I’m thinking of doing it” could mean “I’ve already done it, and now I’m thinking of it.” “My last spouse...next spouse” could mean “I’m not remarried yet, but I’ll let you think I am.” Who can tell? Only the speaker knows for sure.

Oh, well.

I tried, but I lost. He’s an old friend; how can an ex-husband compete with that?

Living as a Christian

Living the lifestyle of a believer in Jesus is a lot like a baby taking his first steps. I mean, you take a few steps and then fall flat on your face. But do you stay on the floor? No! you get back up again. This insight into repentance and obedience to God gives me hope that some time soon I will be where the Lord wants me to be, and on my way to greater success in my Christian walk. “For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again” (Proverbs 24:16a)

Read this.

I thought I’d share this with you. It’s the Our Daily Bread devotional for today.

http://www.rbc.org/devotionals/our-daily-bread/2009/10/26/devotion.aspx

Learning to lean (on Jesus, that is)

Consider: The Lord has promised to supply all our needs. This means that if He does not give us something, we must not need it after all, and it would be a sin to take it for ourselves. This is especially important to me as I have been waiting for signs of His leading concerning Valerie, and then everything just fell apart, right when it appeared the most promising. Do not misunderstand me: I’m not saying I don’t want her anymore; But if it appears that the Lord will bring her back and he does not, I guess my person, identity, and character is not bound up in human companionship after all. But I’m still praying and seeking the Lord’s will for her and for me. I care very deeply about her. In the mean time, Jesus is teaching me how to lean on Him.