I just give up, like the egg that knows when it’s beat, or the stamp that knows when it’s licked. I don’t care anymore. I am resigned from fighting for a marriage that was dead a long time ago, and I am resigned to the will of God, whatever that includes or requires. I’m giving up trying to impress someone who no longer cares. I just give up.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
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About bloody time
ReplyDeleteHave you been watching 'Flavor of Love' on vh1? Flavor Flav gets to choose from 20 girls the one that he wants to date. Good plan.
ReplyDeleteWhen I said, "I give up!" that's not what I meant. And I can't get cable anyway.
ReplyDeleteWhat do you mean then? What does "I give up." mean if you are not giving up on someone?
ReplyDeleteOh, Jeez! I meant that I had given up on the marriage, but I did not mean I was looking for a replacement. Clearly this is a concept too complicated to express adequately in a blog. Yes, I give up my rights to have reconciliation. No, I'm waiting for the will of God, and am in no mind to rush Him or try to be a "Helpful Henry." When He brings the Right One to me, I will know. That answer your question?
ReplyDeleteSo are you saying she wasn't the "One?" LOL! Learn from this old woman, there is no "One." That is a movie concept for hopeless romantics to hope for and be ultimately let down in life. So you loved her, great! Appreantly you let her down somehow. After reading the post you left on the 23rd, I suspect that there was more there than you say with "J?" Is this "J" an old girlfriend? If she was just a "friend" then your ex won't have cared. You are such a bible-thumpper than let me say this, what happened to forsaking all others & cleaving only to your wife? I mean if what was going on what I think was going on, I would be pissed to hell and back. I think you are sugar-coating what was happening. I say that because my ex after I caught him in bed with his ex tried the same bullpuckey-sugarcoating. Something don't sound right. Maybe if you loved your wife so much maybe you should have dropped this Jane Doe and let your wife know she was number one. Sounds like she was hurt. Did you make sure that she felt loved? You talk about that she was hurt, but was she treated like she was loved? Everything I have read says no. Maybe if you do find someone new that you will remember that she is #1. And one more thing, make sure you are totally over your ex before you move on or you will doom your next relationship. From this I say you are far from that. Take it slow kid.
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